If anyone asked me 10 years ago where I saw my life, I would never have imagined it where I am. I have 2 amazing kids, where yes I could write a book on the experiences I encounter everyday because of them; however what parent couldn't? I would never have imagined me doing life as a single mom, or having to make the choices that come along with it. Being a single mom is like having a split personality. I am the dance and hockey mom for most of my days, but then its like I am given 4 days off a month for good behavior. The kids go to their dads, and my single life begins. Sometimes I feel like I get a glimpse of what life would be like if I hadn't of had kids and got married, but then where would I be without all the lessons learned along the way. I can get lost in this thought sometimes.
On a lighter note, being a single mom also has it's extremely good points. I currently don't have to share the blankets or my popcorn with anyone, I can choose the channel on my tv, I now only have to yell at Brayden to keep the toilet seat down, but most importantly I have 2 little people who give hugs and kisses as good as gold and make me cry when they tell me they "Love me up to Jesus".
I've learned the people who you surround yourself with will make you or break you. I have an amazing group of friends. Not just friends who wish me a Happy Birthday each year on Facebook, or ask how I'm doing and don't pursue it past my "I'm good". They're friends who accept me for my version of normal, who push me to be better, to dig deeper in my walk with God, and to get out of my own world and push them back. I don't think a day goes by that I don't thank God for these people. I also thank God that they like hockey and wings.
So after all has been said and typed - I love my life. It reminds me of what God has done and continues to do. I love the unknowingness of where I'm going to go or what I will achieve...it's become an adrenaline rush. I am excited for the next chapter in my life, where I'm going to jump and see what comes my way and who's left standing with me when I land.
